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"Low Man" - Alberta Cross

Sky, Highway, Prairies and Me
I write most of my blogs while driving.  Not literally, just in my head. I pick a song I want to write about and I play it over and over again until I'm inspired.  I don't do a whole lot of driving, but every week I do make my trek to "The Lake".  "The Lake" is about an hour from doorstep to doorstep and the easiest, breeziest drive I ever have to do.  Almost the entire hour drive is just sky, highway, prairies and me.  During my drive to "The Lake" I do alot of thinking and tend to make most of my decisions.



I originally wanted to blog about "Bonfire" by Alberta Cross, but apparently I'm jumping the gun as the song hasn't even been released to iTunes or CD yet.  I downloaded a whole smack of songs by Alberta Cross, not only because I heard them on "Californication" (and as a rule I like anything related to Hank Moody) but because I really like the wailing, melancholy drawl of the lead singer, Petter Ericson Stakee.

Alberta Cross
In a weird sort of way "Low Man" reminds me of wind, trees, lakes and loneliness.  The lyrics are howled more than sung. He feels "a million miles away" from the woman he loves.  That's the funny part about being with someone.  Sometimes you feel more lonely with them than you ever do alone.  Another funny thing is when you get used to being alone you don't necessarily feel lonely.  It's almost scarier to think of yourself with someone than without.  When you're alone there's no one to disappoint or argue with.  On "Grey's Anatomy" in one of Meredith Grey's endless monologues something she said really made sense.  I filed her monologue like an old librarian, waiting for the right blog post to use it in.
"There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever."



Woman, I feel I feel a million miles away
Ocean I've been praying, I've been praying all the way
Woman, I've seen I've seen visions passing away
Ocean I've been trying, I've been trying all the way


Oh, the feeling ain't that strong
And all this fear from carriers along
Oh, low man

How can I be wrong, if the decision's already made
Woman I feel I feel a million miles away
Woman I've been trying, I've been trying all day
How can I be wrong, Oh I feel a million miles away

Oh how feeling ain't that strong
And all this fear from carriers along
Oh, low man
Oh, low man

When this feeling ain't that strong
All this fear from carriers along
Oh, low man